Introduction

So I feel the need to introduce myself, so I'm not a total stranger to anybody who decides to read my posts. I'm Tara, and 18 year old girl. I'm a senior in high school, and I'm depressed. I change my hair color frequently, but my hair is still on my head (thank the the Lord). I'm a non-denominational Christian, but I'm also a very wild person. I like to go out with my friends and just have fun, but some days I want to stay in my room and have myself a good cry. I used to cut, and I still have those thoughts all the time. I'm a cashier at a grocery store, Harris Teeter. I've worked there for 2 1/2 years, and I've hated every second of it, but I love the money.
I have 4 brothers, one of them being my twin. My parents are happily married, my oldest brother is engaged to the sweetest girl I've ever met, and she's also the person who does my piercings.
I'm terrified of graduating and growing up.  It's a part of life, but it's the biggest part that scares me. I have no clue what I want to do after high school or what I want my career to be.
I've had my heart broken several times, most of them being very recent. I didn't think I'd be able to get on with my life, but I'm doing just fine. One of the guys still comes into the store with his new girlfriend and walks past me about 10 times, but I don't let it get to me. I know that I'll be ok.
Well....yeah....that's it for now.